#The things breaking up with your bf and having a breakdown at work does to you..

[niinnyu]

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Terminus...

[hello-universe-lovers]

This isn't really a request but can you talk more about the relationship between Thorn and Oppy?

I love your art by the way!It's so cute and detailed!

*Cracks neck*

Thorntunist, you say?

Buckle up, folks, it's gonna be a rambling and Spoiler ramble!!

So, Thorn and Oppy. Why and when I start shipping em?

In all honesty, I was working backwards from Princess to Voice because I was new to the fandom, and didn't know Thorn was an off-shoot of the Witch. I thought she was the Damsel. So when I started crafting my First Draft AU (basically an AU where things got shuffled with a different Slayer), I thought Oppy and Thorn would work well, since they have themes of betrayal. You can guess the facepalm I did when I learned about the Witch.

BUT, I walked forward anyway, with a couple of revision.

One of the reason I am attached to the Opportunist is not necessarily for his canon actions (though I enjoyed what he brings to the table), but the potential for a psychological breakdown. See, I always find it fun to redeem characters that aren't completely irredeemable monsters because psycho-analyzing their actions and why and how and all that makes me go "Hehehe, I can break you down so you come out a better person :)". Also, at the time, I got influenced by some lovely breakdowns on the Voices and how their behavior works both in the narrative and as individuals. So those also contributed to "Poppy", an Opportunist who feels guilt for his actions and does what he can to redeem himself in the eyes of his victim, and his peers.

Now, as for Thorn. I love her, not just for pretty woman. Like I said once upon a month ago, I see a lot of myself in Thorn (and to a lesser extent the Witch): both as someone who was scorned and someone who hurt others back. For a brief period, I couldn't form relationships, for a while but some people (including my current bf) helped me get out of it by being there. I am getting better. And I love that Thorn represents that. She is hurt, she WAS hurt, and likely will carry the physical and mental scars forever, but she could see pass the pain to stop and think of what she wants: she wants to be loved, and to trust someone again. And in the case of canon, she got that, if we (the Player) choose to do the same.

As for why they are together, I see it as Poppy wanting to make up to her, and she is willing to hear him out, and trust him. (After all, she wasn't totally blameless either, tho the burden is still mostly on Poppy). Overtime, they start to enjoy each other's company, learn more about one another, and eventually started dating. Much like Cheabroken, there wasn't a big flashy confession or a moment where sparks flied, but rather a ton of tender moments of vulnerability that lead up to a confession. Not just a confession of love, but a confession of trust, and security and fears. They aren't ok, just because they are together, but being together makes getting to "ok" possible.

Is this canon compliance? No

Does this rely on heavy headcanon and projection? Yes

Do I love it with all my heart and want nothing but the best for them? Yes

Tlrd: Thorntunist is a thing bc i love 2 people learning to better themselves because they want their S/O to be happy, and in turn be happy with where they are.

Thanks for reading thus far. As a reward, have a cute Thorntunist piece I drew

[getstickbugdlol]

a summary of the Not Breaking Up saga

bf was supposed to move in with me at the end of this month, this has been the plan for a long time and it was his idea and we've been working towards it for like probably a year and a half at this point. we got a cat together last october with the anticipation he'd move in in august

he graduated law school last year and recently had to take the bar for the third time, he's come very close to passing each time but hasn't quite gotten there and he said this is the final time he'll take it. his postdoc job finishes next wednesday and he has struggled to apply for jobs in the meantime, bc his mom is a Girlboss who does everything for him and he got rejected from a job and freaked out

i was visiting friends in arizona last week and bf was catsitting. the cat we adopted is FIV+/special needs plus he has a food obsession so he has a specialty diet and schedule, he needs supplements. before i left arizona i asked bf to get more dry food and he said he would. i reminded him when i was in arizona and he said he would. i was like ok i'm going to leave it at that. mind you i was gone for over a week, so a weekend passed while i was gone. i came home straight off a redeye flight and had to go to urgent care because i have some sort of UTI/bladder infection, and i got home to find that not only had he STILL not gotten the dry food (although i knew for a fact all he did on one of the days he was here was play video games), the litter boxes hadn't been cleaned for several days, hobgoblin hadn't gotten his supplements, nobody had been given their flea/tick meds or hairball meds, there was extra trash piled up, he had not done the dishes he'd used, my garbage and recyling were full of empty alcohol containers, and all my toilet paper was gone. i called him pretty upset about that and he doubled down he didn't do anything wrong and all of a sudden goes "i don't think it's a good idea for us to move in together" and i was like wtf you know i love you and i want to make this work. i went over to his house tuesday night and he said he had concerns about our long term compatibility and i was so caught off guard because we already had this fight last year about staying in nyc vs going and i thought we got through it. he said it's difficult for him to communicate but he was afraid moving in together would lead us to resent each other and he wasn't sure about it. i left in obvious tears and got so angry because i was like oh my god, you're the one who has had your foot on the commitment gas pedal this whole time, to dip now is sooooo shitty and hurtful. i was like you know we don't have to live together, and we haven't lived together so we don't know that's going to happen and he said he was afraid every time the apartment got messy he'd get blamed...i went home in tears and freaked out and posted everywhere and called him and said i have been so brave in this relationship, and i think you are being terrible and cowardly right now. he was supposed to cat sit again next week but i called my mom in so he could come get his stuff from her instead of me.

at emergency therapy the next day my therapist was like woah this is very fast to go straight to break up, get your mom in here (who does not have great boundaries about my relationships), come get your stuff. this is a big decision, and considering both of us are autistic, it makes sense we might have communication breakdowns sometimes, but he might need a little more time to process things. why go straight to break up, it's going to be painful either way. and i was like damn it sonia i hate it when you're right but i called him and basically said i love you and i don't want to break up but i don't want to pressure you to be in a relationship you don't want to be in. but i'm sorry i was cruel and if you need some time to think then take it. he said he loves me too and he was still processing but we'd talk the following night.

so yesterday in the morning he told me he woke up really clear headad and wanted to talk after work and last night we talked and he said that me calling him a coward made him think, and he is really scared about the future and lashed out at me and pinned his worries on our relationship because he was feeling pressure about moving in, but he loves me so much and these have been the happiest three years of his life and he'd be so stupid to let it go over fear. i was like dude i am scared every single day of my life! the future changes ALL THE TIME, but we have to decide we want to be together and be scared together. he stood by me in MY time of crisis, and it's my turn now and it's ok to need me, and to tell me he's scared and to ask for help and if he needs time, then that's ok, we don't need to go through everything right away. he said he knows that and he appreciates it, he's never had to be the brave one before and he's freaking out. i know exactly where he is right now emotionally because i was there one year ago, and we can do this together. so we Set the Intention to work on things. i said the cats ARE a problem, they HAVE to be taken care of properly and we will talk about it, and we will see a couples counselor and cool it on moving in for a bit, and he needs to figure the communication out because i can't do this again. it's natural to lash out at the people closest to you, but i can't have my heart and future just be collateral damage. but for right now let's just remember that we have something really special, and that we like each other and we have fun together. so tonight i'm going over to his house again and we will have a loooooong conversation about where to go from here.

my body is still in a lot of shock and pain, but my boss was really understanding, and so many people rallied around me in support. also like 5 separate people were like "nah this is a fight not a breakup" so clown hours for me. i'm definitely still tender, but i think this is the best possible outcome. bf and i have a really wonderful relationship with a lot of mutual respect and genuine enjoyment. i feel very freed and uplifted by it about 98% of the time until fights like this happen so i hope that he is able to work on this. he seems committed but saying it and doing it are two different things. i'm just deciding to trust him on it

[1d1195]

Hi Sam!! It’s been so long omg😭😭😭 I will explain later tbh bc it’s a bit wild and long! But omg I’ve missed you😭(might be a two parter 😔)

I think your gifts probably give off the vibe of being so cute and presented so well that they are just too pretty to open!

And we love a hates everyone but her moment! And your grumpy characters are a good mixture of grumpy! Like they aren’t ever truly “mean” if that makes sense lol

I can definitely understand choosing the route of “pretending” stuff doesn’t matter in order to have some peace for your mental health! I think in general we’ve all experienced some form of that whether it be in our personal lives or the world. Sometimes it just needs to happen in order to not breakdown. So I get it, there’s nothing wrong with that! Been actually do familiar with that technique lately with how life is going HAHA

How has your reading been lately?? Anything exciting? Or disappointing?! A possible new book boyfriend or are we hating some characters rn?!

Going to the symphony does sound all grown up lol but it was so nice and it made me really just miss the whole vibes of experiencing that kind of performance! My brother and I are very much nerds when it comes to music lol but omg I’m the total opposite I feel less productive! I get tired around 4 pm now 😭 and omg the COLD😭 so brutal and I think im low in iron so I’m basically freezing all the time lol I haven’t started my winter break yet! I start it in about two weeks! But idk how long it is tbh lol

Oh bestie I love when you do rom-com stuff like sometimes the cheesier the better! You just do those vibes well and it’s nice to read like “feel good moment” stuff! And tbh if I had a chance in some alternate universe to kiss HIM I WOULD TAKE IT!!! I do think you’re creative! Maybe like the painting/drawing stuff isn’t your vibe but the way you write bestie?! SO GOOD! Like these plots,plots twists,love confessions, THE YEARNING?!? You do have a very creative mind! And these dividers are just adorable!

I hope you were able to end November on a semi okay note! I know you’ve mentioned how hard it’s been this past month and I hope you were able to relax a bit for the holidays!(hope that was at least okay!) also hope you got to eat some good potatoes in any way!!

I did notice you were a bit quiet this year about your birthday! But I assumed it was mainly because it was towards the beginning of the week and school probably got in the way! But I love that your students made it a bit better! And of course glad you have some lovely people in your life because you deserve that too!!-💜

I can't make them mean, I think it's my biggest fault in writing 😭 I want to make them grumpier and meaner but I just look at Harry with his dimply smile and his cinnamon roll hair and simply can't picture him being mean.

I'm sorry you're really going through it right now. I love to compartmentalize the bad and ignore it until I can deal with it later. Not sure if it's the healthiest way to handle things but I think it's gotta be done sometimes.

I have not been reading much 😭 I'm working on a Christina Lauren book. It's related to another one that I read last year and it's okay but I don't love it tbh right now. I'm only about 70 pages in. I'm surprised though because my friend who's like the biggest bookwork I know thought it was one of their best and I'm just not seeing it atm. Hopefully it will get better. I revisited my basketball bf though for good measure. It had been a few weeks since I reread about him. I feel like I need a cheesy-wintry book boyfriend. I watched Hot Frosty on Netflix, it's incredibly ridiculous. 100/10 recommendation though. no other notes 😂

I love the music relationship you have with your brother! That's so cute. You and the tuba right? I hope i didn't make that up but I can't even remember when we talked about your instrument last so I don't think I could find it if I tried.

Idk, I feel like with limited sunlight it's like I'm being timed and i have to get more done in a shorter amount of time 😂 I love the cold so much because I get to cover up my body the way I like ☠ let's not read into that. I just love sweaters and boots. I feel way more teacher-y in the winter than i do in the summer. But I get it. My bf is a chilly person. I call our apartment The Tropic of Cancer because he has it on a boiling temp (73). I open the window making full eye contact with him when the sun comes through in the afternoon. ANYWAY. I am sorry you're cold. I totally get that and I know this is a rough time of year for a lot of people.

I don't think it's a choice that you kiss him given the chance. It's a given.

I love spending time with my fam for Thanksgiving so that was nice. But it was a long busy working. I feel like I didn't get much relaxation time but I tried. It'll be a quick turn around until winter break so at least there's that. I'm hoping to finish my Christmas shopping soon and relax a little more.

One of my fave students got into trouble right around my bday and I know it's dumb but I was so bummed out about it I barely wanted to celebrate 😂 honestly the student probably wouldn't even have known it was my birthday but idk. it's hard to explain. Kid makes my whole day just to see him. The event day of was also tricky and exhausting. But regardless.

Onto part two thanks for being the best and sweet and lovely 💕

xoxo

[yuukei-yikes]

What are your thoughts on whatever tf is going on between Kano and Shintaro post-str?

HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEH OK LISTEN TO ME

kano is so in love with shintaro its embarrassing like ive reread the novels recently and girl.... hes down so bad its so embarrassing fgkjfdghjkfdghjhgnkjdhgkjdkj like post str shintaro has all this tomfoolery going on with ayano right. and kano...oh my god like.

kano finally got everything he wanted. everything he worked so hard for and acted kind of an ass for is here and now he's just like...left with all this self hatred and guilt bc hes like damn i shut out my siblings and dealed with all this myself and was a dick to this guy who wasnt even knowingly related to all this shit and i. got away with it? like i got everything i wanted? my sister is back? so he's just VERY depressed and feels so undeserving and guilty

everyone else is like in a relationship or whatever (im not a fan of when every single character has a love interest but damn kagepro does romance so fucking well has anyone ever noticed. anyways) and eventually before he realises it kano is living on his own and he's just generally so lost and without purpose and augh *dies* WAIT THIS WAS ABT KANOSHIN

sry i cant talk abt a ship if i dont talk a lil bit abt the characters themselves. like ok kano has All That going on and ON TOP OF IT.... HE LIKES HIS SISTER'S BOYFRIEND. THE SISTER HE'S BEEN TRYING SO HARD TO NOT LET GO OF ALL THIS TIME. THE SISTER HE'S SO INSANELY HAPPY TO HAVE BACK. so of course that makes him spiral down into guilt even more. shintaro and kano are sort of madeup too bc ok i know in the Good End we dont rly see moments like in the novels like kano coming clean abt clearing eyes or disguising himself as ayano but i like to think these moments happen at some point anyway. so going by this kano and shintaro ARE on good terms, shintaro has forgiven kano, he's all cute smiling to him and kanos like AUUUGHHH. and sort of. reverts back to being a little bit of a dick to him.

not super directly but sort of how he was at the beginning, acting how he acts with everyone but there's like a Vibe. shintaro notices and hes like damn i thought we were ok but ig its because im dating ayano and he's overprotective. and that's rly part of the reason too!! shintaros relationship with ayano is sososo messy so kano is so ANGRY because this asshole is out there making his sister cry!!! idiot bitch!!! BUT ALSO HE STILL LIKES HIM

i think when shintaro and ayano have Their Break kano and shintaro have a fucked up little thing that neither would qualify as a relationship bc both are busy hating themselves but like. they definitely kiss you know what i mean. that pic that's like we both have problems that making out won't solve but it can't make it any worse (except it does because this is so fucking messy KANO IS SHINTARO'S (EX AT THE TIME I DONT THINK HE'D CHEAT)GIRLFRIEND'S BROTHER. THAT SUCKS SO BAD FOR HER) also shintaros internal homophobia etc etc etc. lol a fucked up moment of shintaro practicing apologizing to ayano with kano disguising himself as her bc hey i need to practice while looking at her face. and its so messed up for them both. theyre the worst

when shintaro and ayano are back together he would tell her while kano would take it to his grave and augh it brings drama between ayano and kano which is exactly the last thing kano would ever want and hes so mad at shintaro. ayano isnt rly mad she's just surprised and worried for kano, because she doesnt rly see it as omg so fucked up my brother likes my bf she rather sees it like my brother is in pain and currently suffering from unrequited(?) love i need to help him!! and starts kind of helicoptering over kano and eventually kano has a breakdown etcetcetc i dont have an ending for this but these are basically my thoughts lol

ofc there's also shintaro just dates both and/or doesn't get back together with ayano... those are also good options that i like too heh

[moonlightknightess]

hello , first I would like to say that I missed you very much 😭 honestly , second so in Eremika open relationship au( they're married anf have a kid toggether) what If sasha got pregnant from Eren ofc by accident , how would sasha react ( I think she would have a mental breakdown and panic cause she'll feel like homewrecker and thinks Eremika will resent her and the child , and the child will never feel like his half siblings, then she'll start thinking about (TW!!!) Abortion or giving the child up for adoption) and how would eremik react and how would they know ?

TW: Mentions of abortion

Hiii 🥰 Before I start I have to say I really appreciate your words, seriously! I didn't really expect anyone missing my pressence here so knowing that there is people who really like the things I write makes me both happy and sad a the same time 😭 (I don't mean to dissapear like that I swear!) So thank you 🥲

Now this is prime angst material!!! I try to imagine the whole thing and it ends poorly everytime I do 🥲 like, she would seriously be terrified when she finds out that she sees the two lines on the pregnancy test and that there is no other person she does it with other than Eren fucking Yeager, her bf's husband who somehow managed to sweep her off her feet, so there is no doubts it's his

I imagine that she would struggle a lot with coming into terms with not only becomig a mother, but also knowing that it's her bestfriends husband who is the father, the very same guy who is expecting his own child with the woman he truly loves, making her lose her mind little by little, like going into all the 5 stages of grief until she goes to the doctor and he congratulates her for the baby, dooming her life forever 🥲

Yes she would feel like a homewreaker! This was not supposed to happen ever, they all agreed on it but certainly didn't plan on how to act if by any chances it happened, and the fact that Mikasa was already expecting her own bundle of happiness just makes everything worse since she doesn't want to ruin her moment, so she doesn't say a thing about it, secretly plotting on an abortion or leaving the kid up for adoption once she gives birth to them, which breaks her heart just at the mention of it since its not something she wants to do at all! She always wanted kids on her own so doing such a thing makes her sick in the stomach! But at the same time tries to understand she can't in anyway take charge of a kid, she is simply not ready yet

From now on this could go in two ways, a short one and a long one, the short one being that Sasha eventually tells them about the pregnancy and EreMika somehow convinces her to take an abortion, the whole experience so heart breaking for Sasha and EreMika doing their best to help her through all of it, giving it a somehow tragic and hopeful ending at the same time (? Idk lol

The long one would be something like those stories in which there is a happily married family that somehow find out that the husband got a bastard child, especifially by running into Sasha after some time since she seemed to dissapear from Eren and Mikasa's life, just to find her with a baby in her arms that got Eren's green eyes and Sasha's redhair, the both of them placing the pieces together once they realize why did she seemed to distant from them

Confessions are made and before she can blame herself for anything and swear to never bother them it's Eren who suggest to at least try to form a family of three, to help her with the burden of raising a child alone and to let him take resposability of his actions, maybe seek redemption for all the time he has missed, even if it wasn't technically his fault, Mikasa also agreeing to it as a way to help her friend and because she could never live with the fact that all this open relationship issue stressed Sasha so much and she never did anything to help her

They would try for some time, maybe spend some quality time as a big weird family, and for time it seems to work, Eren and Sasha seems to get along pretty fine whenever they have to take care of their child and Mikasa loves the idea of her little girl getting a half-sibling to play with, ultil she herself addresses the elefant in the room by saying that it didn't felt genuine, that everything in between them in the romantic aspects felt forced

And it would be true honestly, there was nothing in between Eren and Sasha nor Mikasa and Sasha outside physical attraction, they only seeked each other only for pleasure reasons so even if they tried, they couldn't make everything in between them work, it would be a good old "lovers who felt out of love" only difference being that they never fell in love, it was mostly lust that lead them to this situation

And yet, they still care for each other, and since the experience at least helped to create a bond in between the kids they would at least want to be around each other, Eren because he still wants to be a present father, Mikasa because she still sees Sasha's kid as and extension of Eren and because she stills holds Sasha dear to her heart plus the time they spent together made her feel like a mother to her friends kid too, and Sasha because she just always wanted her child and herself to be a part of their lives, all of them understandig that there are not romantic feelings in between them but still wanting to form a family, giving a more happier ending in which Eren and Mikasa still stay together and Sasha eventually finds someone else, preferably someone that doesn't mind the closeness their partner share with her kid's father and his wife... and that doesn't mind her messing around with them from time to time either 🤣

I really think I went overboard with this 🤭 I'm just weird like this sometimes i'm sorry 😭 this one has to be the craziest thing I ever headcannoned

The worst part is that I just know that if it wasn't settled in the eremika open rs au I would make this three have their big weird family have a disney-like ending omg 😂 someone help me (?

[simluvbot]

School stresses (when jay comforts you when you’re stressed with school)

tags: fluff imagine, some(?) angst, boyfriend!jay, domestic au

member: bf jay x gn reader

words: 1,434 (mini headcanon and imagine)

request!: “could you do one for jay where his s/o is really stressed with school, and has a breakdown but he is there to comfort them? p.s i love your writing! ☺️”

a/n: i hate this 😭 btw!!! this includes mentions of a nervous breakdown/panic attack(?) with crying and im sorry if t i didnt portray this the most accurately ahh this is so messy sorry 😭😭

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So whenever he sees that you’re struggling in school? he takes your emotions so seriously because he knows how hard you work for it and how difficult it is

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Will pause whatever he’s doing so he can sit in front of you and hold your hand and simply just listen to you rant, even if it takes hours

HIS SHOULDER IS ALWAYS AVAILABLE FOR YOU TO CRY ON

According to the members he is good at massages so yes you bet he will give you a massage to help you relax as a break

Does so of course after telling you that things will be okay, that you’re smart, that you know the information well and he believes in you

Very supportive of you in your studies!

Just wants to make you feel better and relieved asap

is the type of boyfriend that will reassure you and give you realistic solutions to your problems, so you always end up feeling a lot better and confident after talking to him!

will lay with you on your bed for hours when you need to relax, letting u lay on his chest as he rubs soothing circles on ur skin (:

The ticking of the clock in your bedroom room seeks to get more annoying the longer time passes.

School is stressful, is and always has been. But with the amount of anxiousness you’ve experienced in the last few hours and days due to all the work you have to do - you’ve started to question whether you’re really capable enough to do this.

Heaving a breath, you sit back in your chair, curling up into a ball as you stare through glazed eyes at the work on your desk.

You clench your fists, eyeing your papers and various textbooks that you’re having difficulty comprehending. Your laptop with your unfinished assignment sits on top of it all.

Is it worth it? Are you smart enough?

Frustration courses through you at simply staring at one of the pieces of work you’ve been given to complete. You don’t want to do it. You can’t. It’s too much.

Maybe you should just-

“Y/n?”

Jumping at the sound of your name being called, you look back at jay who stands in your doorframe.

He holds the bottle of water he had left your bedroom for, and for a second you stare dumbly as your brain stutters for a second in remembering this fact.

“O-oh, jay!” You say a bit too eagerly, an unsure smile on your lips as you clear your throat and blink your eyes. “Got your water?”

“What’s wrong?”

You blink. You’re always surprised by his bluntness.

Laughing lightly, you shake your head, thoughts running at a million miles an hour and brain seeming to pulse with the various number of things that are indeed wrong to you.

“Nothing.” You say breezily, shoulders tense as you look back at your desk once again, the empty page on your laptop screen seeming to taunt you. “I just..”

Jay doesn’t look convinced, a concerned expression now on his face as he walks closer towards you.

Heat rushes to your cheeks inexplicably, and you glance back at your work on the desk, and then up to your Calendar on the wall.

“It’s just.. just..”

You let out a breath, and you don’t even have to finish your sentence. Because it’s enough for you to break.

Turning away sharply from your desk and from jay, you cover your face with your hands as you feel the stress of the past week reach it’s tipping point inside of you.

“Y/n.”

Jay’s hugging you in an instant; strong arms holding you tight against his chest, pulling you in gently without hesitation.

“School is just so much. Too much. I don’t know if I can handle it.” You heave, chest constricting as you breakdown, hot tears streaming down your cheeks as you feel your face flush in embarrassment. 

“Hey hey hey, its okay.” you hear jay say distantly, followed by the soft thud of him dropping his water bottle somewhere, and you can only blink numbly as you try to dumbly process how quickly everything is happening -  from him taking your hand in his and leading you to sit on your bed to him wiping away your tears softly with his calloused fingertips, large palms holding your face gently in his.

“Breathe, okay? you can do that for me?” 

Blinking through your blurry vision, you nod as jay’s face slowly start to focus through your tears, heart thudding in your chest and adrenaline coursing through your veins as you start to follow along with your boyfriend’s lead.

“In, out. In and out y/n.”

You hear the concern in his voice, his expression clouded with worry as his thumb gently rubs your cheek, hushing you quietly and breathing deeply with you as you try to get your shallow breathing to slow down.

“Jongseong.” you mumble, feeling flustered as you break the eye contact at how quickly everything seemed to escalate. You were just sitting at your desk stressing about school a second ago and in what felt like in only a blink, youre in your boyfriend’s arms; safe.

The black-haired boy simply shakes his head, softly telling you to focus on breathing.

You’re unsure if you’ve ever seen jay so serious when it’s concerning you before, all jokes and lightheartedness leaving for this moment. It takes a few more minutes before your heart rate has slowed and the jelliness you feel in your limbs has left, and soon you’re feeling a lot calmer.

“Are you feeling better?” Jongseong asks, standing up away form you briefly to collect the water that was initially for him, handing it to you instead once opening the lid.

You nod as you take it gratefully and you gulp down the water. “yeah.”

Taking your hand in his, he sits down further back on your bed, guiding you so you’re sitting in front of him between his legs.

“So?” he says patiently, not at all imposing in his tone as he moves you hair away from your neck, sweeping it over your shoulder.

When you give him permission to touch you, you heave a breath at the feeling of his hand on your shoulders; palms pressing down smoothly and expertly soothing your tense muscles.

“I’ve just been really stressed i guess.” You say quietly after a comfortable silence, fiddling with your fingers and closing your eyes as you feel your fatigue drift away with the work of his hands, calmness settling over.

“Schools been piling up, and i just have a lot to do.” You murmur. “I dont know. I have a lot to study so I’ve just been feeling pretty overwhelmed.” 

Jay hums and you close your eyes, letting yourself relax into his  touch as he massages you without word.

“School does put a lot of pressure.” he says thoughtfully, and you feel him nodding behind you. “But I’m sure you’re going to do well, y/n. Don’t worry too much. You’re only going to stress yourself out even more.”

He turns you around gently, and your widened eyes meet his concerned ones. “Have you been taking rests when you study during the day, love?” Jay asks, and you feel butterflies in your stomach at the nickname.

“..yeah.” You say hesitantly, leaning in towards your boyfriend and his soft chest.

“Yeah..?” Jay drawls out with a chuckle, kissing your forehead. “Yah, you should y/n.  Don’t burn yourself out. Your health is just as important as school is. You’re going to ace it, okay?”

Pausing, he makes you look at him and repeat the words, “I’m going to ace it.”

“I’m going to ace it.” You say after him with a chuckle, rolling your eyes at your boyfriend’s insistent behaviour.

Jay smiles softly. “Give me your flashcards later if you have any so i can help you revise the, later, okay?”

You nod, smiling as you kiss his neck, wrapping your arms tightly against his chest.

“Okay.” You say fuzzily, enjoying the small circles he rubs into your side. “Thank you.”

Jay hums, leaning back so youre lying on top of him, his soft round eyes meeting yours, hand stroking your cheek softly.

“I love you, y/n. Please don’t hold in your stress anymore.”

[cloveroctobers]

• JENIFER “JEN” MARLOWE •

IG Info/bio: @/justjenw1n | 220k followers | Fashion | just a LUVer who owns a lovely blog that you’re more than welcome to check out here... astoldbyjenmarlowe.co.uk 🪞🛍🪄

22 (24) (25 in 2021) years of age

From London, England

Her family has French origins

Tends to visit once a year mainly with her family

For her 18th bday, her parents also sent her to Paris with her bf that she’s been dating since she was 14

they broke up since he wanted to stay in Paris to pursue his dreams and she felt like she needed to be back home...which she felt Paris was not

Extremely close to her parents, some may say a little TOO close...

See, I feel like jen comes from a family that spoils her where her parents did everything and took care of everything for her. She had the privilege and didn’t have to work too hard to get things she wanted so that made her a little bit different than a few of her friends, hell—even her bf

Didn’t have to work until she reached her twenties

She also didn’t have too many friends because her parents felt like her cousins and/or her sibs were really only allowed to hold that title

However her parents had some sort of a soft spot for her when they allowed her to date her bf at 14 since he came from a nice background...

And to have at least 1-2 best friends...

I can’t decide if I see her having 3 other sibs with her being the second eldest, or her being the eldest with a younger sister? I can also see her being a only child too? Idk y’all can decide

Because her family is a tight knit one, she values everything they say and do...which is canon/evident

She got her thigh tattoo in Paris and even thought about asking her parents permission but her bf talked her out of it

she later showed them that night while he was in the shower. Her mother openly disapproved saying it was, “unladylike or unclean” while her father was more lenient towards it 

Her mother even scheduled her for laser appointments but this was one of the things jen was sure of, she loved her tattoo and she didn’t want to erase it from her body which led to her mother not speaking to her for about a month—even tho they live in the same household

I feel like she looks more like her dad with her mom’s hair and smile

Got into fashion due to her maternal grandmother who seemed to live a extravagant life as a old time actress, she always had and owned the finest of things

Jen loved having sleepovers there, it felt like she had her own personal Liz Taylor inside of her nan...but better!

Definitely found inspiration through Liz Taylor, Kate Moss, Victoria Beckham, and Naomi Campbell

she had no clue what she wanted to do in life (she never had to think too hard about it until now, it’s true what they say about your twenties) and she made the choice not to continue thru with uni & I’m not going to make her out to be the stereotypical “dumb blonde” I think she did well in school—so she kinda just chilled after it was all over

Her first job at 20 was probably working in retail where she learned all about the bs you put up with but she loved clothes! That never changed

So she decided 6 months into her job that she was going to make a fashion blog

she made one separate from her tumblr but kept it under construction since she needed to brain storm what exactly this blog would entail

It didn’t take too long to her to figure it out by how she wanted the blog to look then discussing pieces from celebs/models then slowly discussing her own wardrobe + advice

She didn’t immediately gain success for it —altho she did have a good 1k people follow her thru her tumblr where she also provided the link to her separate blog... but she worked/works hard at it, hoping one day it’ll get her somewhere and that maybe she can get paid for it too?

Retail fucking sucks and people are horrible twats so when she was approaching 21 she deff quit with her parents still hammering...more so her dad on what she needs to do with her life but she found happiness in her blog and no one was going to take that away from her —not even her parents

‘What’s the use of working if it doesn’t make you happy?’ She thinks but again! she has the privilege of living under her parents roof and not having to pay bills so she didn’t have to worry too much rn she knows they’d never kick her out right?

she has two bunnies named “bugsy” and “Lola”—u know the reference right?

I feel like she values the flinstones & jetsons because it was something her dad loved watching as a kid and still does , probably has the dvds showcased in her room that she watches when she feels sad

Seems like a smiley person but when she’s sad? It kinda sucks to see cause she turns into a whole different person and she always seems happy with a smile so wide that turns her eyes squinty

If she disagrees with something, she’s 100% giving her opinion whether you like it or not? Wrong is wrong. But when the shoe is on the other foot? She hates being wrong LOL or doesn’t view herself being wrong. Doesn’t take accountability well...at all!

She’s also showed her ass by being a gossiper and fake as hell with Allegra about mc with the whole, “let’s pretend like we’re there for her” if you’re not fucking with somebody just say that or SHOW it sis cause that snakey shit will come back to bite you in the ass (I forgot about this lol as I’m replaying)

she’s all “mega resting bitch face” until she breaks out into a large smile

Libra sun? + Virgo moon? + Gemini rising?

I feel like she only knows what she wants when it comes to relationships but not with the rest of life?

Lol she was very determined with levi in the beginning, explored shit with jake, (I can’t remember if that was after you/mc showed a interest in him or not in that route? I’m doing a talia/Rohan route rn But that’s kinda foul if she’s smiling in ur face and then boom goes and does what she wants but hey that’s the game right? Fck that tho) and then stood by Tim after only some time?

She wasn’t feeling him in the beginning either cause he thought she was too posh for him and snakey which he’s right to some degree but she’s also right if she finds him too immature for her liking

To you jim? Ten? Stans— Idk what their ship name is but it probably wouldn’t have worked out in the long run either because I don’t see both of them wanting to change themselves completely to satisfy the other. (Tim tried) Sure if you’re showing unhealthy behaviors and are open to diminishing that for yourself then trying to work on your relationship then that’s great! But they already started from the jump not liking each other’s personalities/characteristics....

And hey! Ofc I know people grow to like things they might have disliked about you in the beginning but you can also find yourself not fully accepting it in a relationship and that doesn’t mean you didn’t try

+ it’s been hinted at that they’re not endgame & if you love yourself some Tim not platonically then this works in ur favor. if not? Then you can keep them endgame by all means! For me? That endgame shit is a no! For those that don’t gaf about either of them that’s fine too lmao

YES I feel like they were both hurt over the breakup and it probably happened right around the holidays or either a couple of months after Christmas/New Years 2019

Jen is probably the type to keep checking up on her ex, not necessarily talking to them but finding out who they’re with now

and if it’s Tim with mc she’s definitely gossiping about the shit with erikah and Allegra or making shady tweets or posts on IG for sure

“5 outfits to wear when you run into your ex” type posts on her blog looool

She hopes if she runs into Tim, she’s looking her best and she would 80% go up to him & mc/his new girl if not mc and be all huggy with him and holding conversation before she even thinks to acknowledge mc/new girl and when she does it’s a shady convo with fake smiles

Absolutely loves watching housewives so she was prepared for that moment if it ever does come

Her parents openly didn’t like Tim which made him feel like shit since it seemed like jen never defended him in front of them but again, she values her parents opinion and always wants their stamp of approval that’s just the way the girl is/ was brought up

She owes them everything but deep down knows that in her relationship with Tim she could have been a little more understanding of his needs like he was with her love for her parents...but she’ll never admit that

Doesn’t get over breakups as easily as it may seem like her exes do in her opinion.

It sure didn’t take long with Tim to date mc/new girl months after they broke up! Which was like a slap in the face

The ex bf she spent time w in Paris who looks like Matthew Noszka is now engaged, lives in AMERICA—& of all places??? California to be exact, and just released his debut album!! She knows which songs are probably about her, it’s a nice album she screamed about it for hours into her pillow and cried for what felt like weeks

Lost her voice over that breakdown too

Her mother even went as far as sending a nasty letter to this ex bf’s new address...since ya know? jen’s dad is a private investigator & all!!! but dad had no knowledge of this being done

She’s still fond of Levi and jake but not like in love with them? Like she thought/felt she was with Tim but she still considers them her mates

Maybe in 2021 she’ll be open to dating again and hopes erikah and Allegra will be her wingwomen when the time comes BUT she’s focusing on her blog rn and it’s the best it’s ever been!

She had the show to thank for that now that she has a manager and is getting paid for running her blog now! That’s right this girl is officially employed!

“At least one good thing came from the show ;) 🧽🥐🥂” type of tweets

There’s never not a moment where she’s not connecting her posts whether thru ig or Twitter to her blog: astoldbyjenmarlowe.co.uk!!!

Both erikah and Allegra talk a little shit about that together...WHEN they DO talk, the pair only really socialize when jen initiates it but if one pisses the other off?? they’re going to gossip about it with the other forsure

She doesn’t look that tall to me? Taller than erikah? 5’2-5’5 the 5 is pushing it for me? Maybe? lol I’m still deciding between her and Allegra far as height and I’m too lazy to go back and see what I put for her

Hates straightening her hair, that pin straight look is not cute to her. She loves having waves and body to her hair

Get her eyebrows micro bladed since she doesn’t have much hair up there to begin with

Adores French cuisine, always has since she was a little girl. Bisque used to be her fav back then and all that she would eat

Loves spring season especially pastel colors when it comes to her wardrobe

The type to say one thing and do the complete opposite

I feel like she probably has a little bit of lisp and it’s not really noticeable until she says some words, she’s insecure about it and thought it had something to do with the structure of her teeth and begged her parents to get them fixed but it literally had nothing to do with them

Yet she still got colorful braces in middle school even tho her teeth were pretty straight. She didn’t have to wear them for a whole year, thank goodness

Went to speech therapy to help

Has stacks of fashion magazines even from the early 90s all over her room: her night stand, her vanity, her closet, underneath her bed etc...

Adores the Hadid sisters, Rosie Huntington-Whiteley, & Georgia May Jagger

Makes the best white chocolate chip (that’s right, white not just regular chocolate) banana bread but cooking/baking? Isn’t really her thing

Early riser

Loves yellow: yellow phone case, yellow laptop, yellow room, yellow tulips, yellow shades, etc...

Getting Prada shades was probably one of the best things that happened to her, s/o to her nan for granting her this wish

Words of affirmation is her love lanaguage, this girl is a talker and a bit of a thinker too I mean duh? She runs a blog

Likes bright colors on her toes but nude and clear polish on her hands?

Loves a good mascara but she also loves magnetic lashes but is trying her best to grow her lashes out rn! Thanks to erikah for sending her some good ol’ coconut oil!

Smokey eyes? Set her up

Gets a belly ring, and two more tatts one in between her boobs and the last on her ankle & that one she shed a tear over!

Maybe she’ll start changing her physical attributes more so than the way she carries her life at first? (Or ever) She’ll cut her hair below her collarbone to the top of her chest, and maybe she’ll try a light light LIGHT brunette (she loves being a natural blonde) with blonde highlights? Who knows

loves espadrilles and wedge sandals

Loves going wine tasting and visiting vineyards, if she’s vacationing? You can bet ur ass she’s looking for a vineyard to visit

Deff a lightweight

Here’s her unpopular opinions on s2: Thought Felix was a wannabe Tim and hates the fact that he follows her, thought graham was unattractive and said so to Allegra who snickered, thought marisol’s clothing choices were rather boring,

didn’t feel 100% bad for Hannah but disagrees with the way Gary and noah spoke about her + the way Gary tried to slide back over to Hannah on her comeback episode

but doesn’t feel like Lottie is wrong for choosing Gary after Hannah left

isn’t a fan of priya but is glad she’s doing fashion since jen strongly believes in if something isn’t making u happy then u need to let it go

Thinks Hope should have won and cannot tolerate Bobby. Feels he’s WORSE than Felix,

would be open to dating Ibrahim or Carl from that szn

has spoken to Harry from s3 due to his drunkenness and actually made a friend out of him? But low key wants to get to know seb? Take that info as u will 👀

Her anthem: Michelle — SUNRISE

[heartjwi]

firsts — lee donghyuck

in which you & donghyuck share your first kiss, first fight, your first everything.

a/n: hello its jan the hyuck deprived bitch p.s my apologies on my rusty writing skills 🤓

you and hyuck had an interesting relationship to begin with to say at least

you were the goody two shoes while he was the opposite

he was almost like every bad boy!au created morphed into one

and no he’s not a dickhead or rude he’s just straight up,,, bold

if you exclude the occasional times he would talk back to his teachers and people who would be all over his face of course

anyways

so hyuck obviously had a reputation with girls (as expected of the school’s resident bad boy) 

so he was already out of your radar 

and vice versa

mainly because of the way his peers described you to him 

you just disliked the fact he would be all over the place

to you its so messy and all that shit

in hyuck’s defense he was just being himself

hyuck also disliked the fact you think you’re too good for people like him

WHICH WAS NOT THE CASE IN YOUR PART

you just didn’t want to affiliate yourself with people who create a messy surrounding if you say so yourself

and on one magical day, you had to work with hyuck on some project

thus your little relationship was born

you remember the first time you talked to him and you didn’t expect to hear a honey like voice to come out from a face like his

hyuck was also shocked that you weren’t snobby as people described you to be

so anyway fast forward to the good shit

asking you out has to be the most frustrating, time consuming thing hyuck has ever done

first he had to get the approval of your parents

which took him 4 whole months to get a yes from your dad alone!!!

they just want what’s best for their daughter aka you okay 😤 

second, he had to make sure the timing was perfect not only for him, but for you

knowing how meticulous you could get if he asked you out on a holiday or a special event

he’ll never hear the end of it

“if you asked me out on valentines day like almost every couple in the universe does, i don’t want it. i want our anniversary date to be special like it screams ‘us’ you know? so yeah no asking me out on holidays or special occasions” you tell him out of the blue 

making him relentless cause he originally planned on asking you out on valentines day

but in the end, it was all worth it

he finally asked you out on august 28 

which got him the sweet “yes” he’s been dying to hear after all the blood, sweat and tears he poured into making the day extra special

and now for phase 2: the relationship

the reason why you were a bit too picky on how you wanted your bf to ask you out was mostly based on the fact,,

you never dated anyone 

so when you first found out about hyuck liking you, you were,, shocked

like someone ?? actually ?? likes ?? you??? 

and the fact hyuck was your first real crush and all that cute puppy love shit,,

it was a big deal for you

also the fact hyuck perfected your vision?? your dream date?? chefs kiss 

you knew that hyuck had already shared his firsts with someone else

which kinda made you insecure at some point

cs you think the moment won’t really be special to him as it was to you

but WRONG !!!

hyuck was sweating buckets before you had your first real kiss with him

he was like: FUCK WHAT IF I FUCK UP AND SHE BREAKS UP WITH ME

while you were like: I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IM DOING

“let me know if you’re uncomfortable, okay? i just want this to be perfect for you and i” hyuck stares deeply into your eyes. 

in the end, he guided you into the kiss so you didn’t just puckered your lips and attached it to his

after that vv sweet moment, you were as red as a tomato and hyuck looked like he could explode at any moment

truly a first, you’ll never forget

as your relationship ages like fine wine, 

you could not ignore the fights here and there with him

but one fight was something you won’t forget

as it was your real first couple fight

there was a point in time where your whole relationship turned rocky with him

with finals catching up and shit ton of assignments due, academic stress was taking a toll

you were a bit too, snappy towards him and he, donghyuck, with his bratty attitude could not help but let out some few insulting words here and there time to time

anyway

so hyuck, again who already has his own problems to deal with, came to your aid one time as you called him crying and having a mental breakdown over your academics on the phone

he ended up coming over and somehow made it worse for you to deal with cs he was literally giving shit advice

“listen y/n, if i just came for you to push me away then i’ll just get going then” hyuck crosses his arms, not noticing the change of atmosphere in the room

“then fucking leave! i didn’t ask you to see me!” you snap at him

that was the very first time you’ve seen hyuck angry

“so i’m the bad guy now? i hope you know i would fucking drop ANYTHING for you if you needed me!” he yells, making you flinch.

but sis wasn’t backing down without a fight

“who said i needed you right now?” you retort, immediately regretting it right after you see hurt flash in his eyes. 

“wait.. hyuck-” you tried calling him but it was too late. he walked out of your apartment without another word.

all night, you were trying to desperately contact him but seems like he turned off his phone

the very next day, you had bags under your eyes after a restless night

you thought of visiting him and ask for an apology but turns out he had the same plans as you do

when you opened your door to go see him,

there he was standing on your doorway with flowers on hand and a paper bag on the other

“hyuck?” “y/n?” you both say at the same time

hyuck notices your under eyes and instantly feels guilty over last night

you immediately hug him and burry your head in his chest. repeatedly saying “i’m sorry”

you feel his grip on you tighten, mumbling “i’m sorry too”

overall

hyuck would be the most patient person in the world when it comes to you

despite him not being used to the slow paced type of relationships,

he really made an effort to be with you and it turned out great

he’s got the most amazing girl in the world (for him) and he wouldn’t want it in any orher way

cause in the end, he knows all his sacrifices, efforts, and everything else,

is all worth it because of you

the end

[toxicxxmyth]

Dating Christopher Vélez headcanon

Authors Note: Don’t know if I rlly have to mention this but I called Chris a fuckboy in this like 20+ times so don’t be offended m8 and just like Richards, this is all over the place

Richard‘s headcanon

Christopher has mentioned many many MANY times that he is not looking for a relationship

My man is getting that good good PussAy ;))))))

And he ain’t looking for no commitment :(:

We stan a fuck boy ;)

So it probably took him like three encounters to notice you

The first time was at a house party and y’all talked for like five seconds and then went your separate ways

You remember him

He didn’t even remember your hair color lol

The second time was also at a party

You were looking for your car keys but you spotted the cute guy you talked to for like a second

So you asked if he’d seen your keys like a fkn dumbass

And he was like “nah m8 😔”

And you were like “aight ���😔”

And he thought you were hot so that’s a start

Then the third time was also another party

And then y’all saw each other again and made a convo this time

He for sure remember you this time cause he wasn’t as tipsy as before

Lol

So that’s how y’all met

But just like Richard

It took this boy a long time to actually get his shit together and be like

“I actually like this girl”

Ya feel?

But you already liked him

But you understood his position

You were actually grateful that he didn’t just agree to go out with you if he wasn’t certain about you

It saved you the heart break

But after many MANY months

He gave in, and he was grateful for your patience

Anywhore

Now to the headcanon of dating the Ecuadorian fuck boy who we love

There is never a day where you’re bored

He’s always got something planned for the day

Lazy days are superior tho

His laugh could cure your acne, sadness’s and anxiety

Thank God he laughs every damn day

HE WILL FOR SURE TEACH YOU HOW TO SKATEBOARD

And if you already know how to skateboard then y’all will ride together like actual goals

He goes all out when it comes to dates

Will take you to the most expensive restaurants in the area

For sure will buy you a fancy ass dress

I highly believe that out of all the members he’s the one who’ll spoil you the most

Like fuck

It’s a lot

When he’s away on tour he’ll have a bIG ASS bouquet of flowers sent to you or chocolate

Will surprise you jewelry, food, clothes aNYTHING

you’ll have to remind him that he doesn’t have to do any of that but he insists on doing them bc he loves spoiling you sm

Yet when you return the favor by buying him something small he’s all like

“:0 thIS IS TOO MUCH, AMOR”

and you’re like “???? Khe ???”

For sure will teach you Spanish if you don’t already

Staring by cuss words ofc :’)

Whenever y’all go to the club he always comes up to you like you’re a stranger or smth

“I'm new in town. Could you give me directions to your apartment?” ;)

“ChRisssss”

He’d try this the whole night making random guys come to your “rescue”

Chris is laughing his ass off while you calmly tell them that it’s just your bf

He doesn’t seem to be the jealous type

He’s v confident that u love him and only him

Which is true

It takes a lot in him to get jealous

But when he does

OOFFF

You better be scared

He never takes it out on you, just the guy who seemed to cross a boundary that Chris drew in his imagination

You’re the one who gets jealous easily for sure

SO MANY PRETTY FEMALES THROWING THEMSELVES ON HIM MAKES YOU SEE RED

But he always shows you that you’re the only one he wants if you know what I mean ;)

Honestly, y’all don’t even cook, just order a shit ton of food while watching movies or the both of you just work on your individual projects

If you ever get stressed over work or a project from uni hes always there

Softly rubbing your shoulder as he presses kisses soft kisses along the shell of your ear sending shiver down your spine as you relaax

It might lead to ;) or it could end in you cuddling until you get your mojo back

The sEX is bOmB bTw ;))))))))

Like, this dude is so into overstimulation and subspace that he’ll have you c*mmimg multiple times a night :):

Ooff

Edging is suCH a big turn on for this boy

Y’all fuck like rabbits no doubt

Public sEx is definitely HIS thing

Expect a quickie after each show in his dressing room when you visit him on tour ;)

Anything you do is such a turn on for him

You literally make him feel like a hormonal teenager again

I’m 92% sure this boy will cry one tour bc he misses you sm

Which leads you to surprising him on the other side of the world

Which he is super grateful for :’)

And then y’all have some bomb sex cause y’all a bunch of sex addicts m8

Whenever he feels down he just rests his head on your boobs and wrap his long arms around your body

You let him rant as much as he wants

And somehow you know whether or not he wants advice or just someone to listen

vice versa

Now imma be 100% honest

Don’t @ me

I feel like it’ll take such a long time for Chris’s mother to actually like you

He’s such a mommas boy that just seeing him with another woman might make her skeptical

Ooff I’m crossing dangerous grounds here

He’s siblings and grandmother automatically loved you, but his mother was distant

Christopher has to have a heartfelt conversation with her about it beCAUSE HE LOVES YOU SM AND HE NEEDS THE WOMAN OF HIS LIFE TO ACCEPT THAT

This lowkey makes you feel like an intruder

You feel as if you’re ruining their relationship

But you’ll also have a heartfelt convo with her and at the end of the day y’all would get along once she sees how much you love and care for her son

It probably took a year for y’all to move in together

But when you do, y’all have even more fun and adventures than before

Y’all goals asf

Most of his ig stories are about you

Videos, promoting your posts etc the whole package deal

Subtle matching tattoos

You say “I love you” first and he’s all blushy and giggle which makes you all bullishly and giggly as well :’)

And y’all just make love as he repeats the words and over and over :’)

He always has his hands around your shoulder

Pulling you closer at the most random times

HUGS EVERYWHERE MAN

Omfg this man smells like christmas heaven

Just like his mom, your family wasn’t certain about him first

And by your family i mean your dad(or male figure if you’re dadless :’)

Making him sad

But you’ll do your best to convince you dad that he is a good guy wHICH HE IS!!!!

After a while, he gave Chris a shot

And that’s all you ask for Tbfh

Will subtly mention you in interviews which would cause the guys to give each other knowing stares

Just Like Richard, you receive hate after hate

BUT YALL FICKING TOO HARD TO NOTICE!!

It sometimes gets to you but Chris is always there to comfort you

Making you go all uwu

He goes full mom mode whenever you get sick

Will google your symptoms

Lowkey has a mental breakdown when google tells him that you only have two weeks to live lol

He later calls his mom and she tells him what he should do

Will try to help you with your work but he just gives you a look and gives tf up

Soft hours late at night

You guys talk about your future and marriage and kids and it just lives you all soft and warm inside

Little did you know that he feels the exact same

You’d be in his arms slightly leaning against the headboard as your dress hands play with each other fingers talking about nothing and everything

Sings to you whenever you have trouble sleeping

THE GUYS LOVE YOU

Did I mention that? Lol

Just like any new friendship

Y’all were awkward at first but after a few minutes of getting to know each other they all loved you

Especially Erick, that boy is your child and you will protect him from any danger in the world lmao

That’s it my ppl :’)

Deuces once again :’)🤙🏼

[shhhlikeme]

Hi hi can I get a match up. i’m a infj and a Sagittarius. My friends tell me that I’m nice, Creative, somewhat tsundere, funny, and cute.I play the piano and violin and I love playing ddr, rhythm games and I love cute stuff, I play tennis for fun and I also like drawing.My anxiety is so bad,I’m really hard on myself.I care about my grades so much at the point i have a mental breakdown. Thank you *gives cola and love*

Hi sweetheart! I get some matchups that are hard to match because of various reasons, but yours is not one of them. I think you and I both know that you are most compatible with:

—————————————————

KENMA KOZUME!

Cat boy is the perfect example of an INFJ personality omg

INFJ = Introvert, Intuitive, Feeling, Judging????? That IS Kenma!

A tsundere personality is very Kenma as welll

So the two of you never have a chance to to worry about personality incompatibility...neverrrr

You both understand each other’s introverted tendencies but it seems you two liked being introverts....together

so romantic 🤩

Chill days & nights when you both were on the couch and you were doing your own thing on your laptop, Kenma would come over with his Switch and move you so that your legs were on his lap.

Like this:

He just loved having you touch him even though you two did your own things. you both found lots of comfort in being near each other

Kuroo can’t believe that you somehow got Kenma to play DDR with you (because you were just too sweet for him to turn down a third time) and Kuroo hasn’t seen it so Kenma just denies it lol

But secretly he loved playing with you because it brought happiness to your face and Kenma would get out of his comfort zone if it meant you were that happy

When Kenma becomes a big a Youtuber and uses his money to create a video game, he enlists your help and asks you to be the Creative Director

He wants you near him every step of the way because he trusts you and loves you

Kenma hates sports so you can’t drag him into a tennis game but he will watch from the sidelines like you do with his gaming, and he will give you water whenever he felt you needed it. ugh bless his heart

When he watched you play tennis piano or the violin he will shut up off all his devices to watch you if you’d let him

He liked audio recording you play your instruments and then listen to it in his headphones when he walked to school

As per your anxiety, Kenma suffers from ‘social anxiety’ so he understands you well

However, Kenma is the best help when it comes to mitigating your breakdowns because his anxiety is directed toward social settings

He is a gifted student as well 📝 🥇 so you agree when he insists on studying with you and forcing you to take stabilizing breaks like he does so that you are more calm

Kenma’s reasoning is that he doesn’t work too strenuously and still pulls off great marks so you can relax and pull them off too.

Your next test using his tips you get an A while your bf gets an A-!!

You hug him so tightly and thank him for all his help

Kenma freezes because he doesn’t do PDA, but then he can’t burst your bubble so he happily hugs you back tighter and buried his blushy face in your hair

can he get any cuter?

Years down the line, Kozumes handsome self proposes to you with this Swarovski engagement ring set:

You said yes! 🤩🤩🤩

and you never lose that ring box.

Everything he does is so special to you

You two live a very happy but quiet life together and everything just felt right ❤️🐱

[maydaymadier]

Twenty Playlist Breakdown

I finally made the playlist for Twenty, my air genasi wild magic sorcerer so [insert ah_shit_here_we_go_again.jpg]

Family, Mother, Mother This party was very much a found family situation, Twenty managed to develop some sort of familial bond with pretty much everyone but most notably the tiefling bard Kimiko who he straight up claimed was his daughter.  It started off as just a one-off thing to get someone to leave her alone but then they both ended up taking it to heart.  This is also probably the most earnestly he’s ever felt connected to a group of people.  He has his parents but there’s a level of dedication he has to the party that he hasn’t felt before. “The people are staring and talking in whispers/"Hey what's with the strange breed?"/They is my family, they is my family/They might be crazy, but they is my family/You can't get to them unless you get through me/You fuck with them you fuck with me”

Trouble Is A Friend, Lenka Twenty sees his wild magic as a strange companion he doesn’t want but can’t do anything about so he does his best to just accept it.  It’s a strange little imp that doesn’t leave him alone.  Befriending that trouble is how he’s gotten so powerful anyway. “Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh/And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh/He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh”

The Devil Wears A Suit And Tie, Colter Wall Alluding to Twenty’s background, as essentially a magical conman, the type of man to be bargained with.  He was a diplomat of sorts, offering council to anyone willing to pay.  Though he would make a deal with anyone foolhardy enough to trust him.  It’s not a period of his life that he’s particularly proud of.  Not regrets per se, just wants to keep it in the past. “Foolish foolish was I/Damn my foolish eyes/Cause that man's lessons had a price/Oh sweet price...../ Don't you know the Devil wears a suit and tie”

Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy, Queen I wanted a peppy, cheesy, unrepentantly head-over-heels song for Fifty (Twenty’s bf is an npc named Thirty so...well...easy math joke).  This is probably Twenty’s perspective since this is more energetic and Twenty has the force of personality and charisma of a sorcerer. “Ooh let me feel your heartbeat (grow faster, faster)/Ooh ooh can you feel my love heat, ooh/Come on and sit on my hot-seat of love/And tell me how do you feel right after-all/I'd like for you and I to go romancing/Say the word, your wish is my command”

Need The Sun To Break, James Bay Twenty is vaguely aware that his upbringing/past was strange but he isn’t quite ready to admit to it yet.  In the meantime he would appreciate a hug.  Or just someone to sit there next to him while he sits there in silence working through his shit.  So yeah, the anthem for Twenty’s Moments of Realization. “I need the sun to break, you've woken up my heart/I'm shaking, all my luck could change/Been in the dark for weeks and I've realized you're all I need/And I hope that I'm not too late,”

Put Your Head On My Shoulder, Paul Anka Local Touchstarved Gay Cuddles BF Nearly Twice His Height.  “Put your head on my shoulder/Hold me in your arms, baby/Squeeze me oh-so-tight/Show me that you love me too”

Sanremo, MIKA Okay, so, hear me out.  I have a very specific image in my head of this song.  It’s big Gentlemanly Older Gay Man In A Light Summer Suit Sitting On The Patio Of A Little Seaside Cafe Flipping Through A Newspaper Lazily And Glancing Up Over His Coffee Mug, Peoplewatching While He Waits For Him and that’s the vibe I try to give with Twenty like 85% of the time.  “To feel like this/Is one in a million/A suspended moment/Can we seal it/With a tender kiss?/Out of a movie/Made by Fellini/Love that you need me”

The Origin Of Love, Hedwig and the Angry Inch GOOOOOD this song slaps so hard, it has no right to slap so hard.  Just, being so desperately in love with someone because it makes him feel whole again.  “You had a way so familiar i could not recognize/Cause you had blood on your face/And i had blood in my eyes/But i swear by your expression/That the pain down in your soul was the same/As the one down in mine......../We wrapped our arms around each other/Tried to shove ourselves back together/We were making love, making love”

I’m Still Standing, Elton John Is Twenty occasionally caught off-guard by the fact that he’s on the whole, happy, living with someone he loves, living their best lives together?  Yeah.  But not in a bad way.  Just sort of stopping suddenly and going “Oh.  Sweet?  Yeah, sweet, I think?  That sounds right.” “Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did/Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid/I'm still standing after all this time/Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind”

Come With Me, Chxrlotte The first time Twenty met Thirty he didn’t have a great impression, he thought he was too loud and woefully lacking in self-awareness.  BUT OH BOY DID THAT CHANGE.  At this point, Twenty just shamelessly idolizes him.  He loves him and doesn’t know where he’d be without him, simple as that.  Also, Twenty literally asked Thirty to come to the Elemental Plane of Air with him and Thirty did it, the absolute mad lad.  “Hallelujah, running to you/They won't find us, you and I can watch the stars fall from the sky/All clothed in white, my shard of light/Let's go together, we'll be free/The world ends eventually, so come with me”

7 Years, Lucas Graham God, I’m gonna have to make a separate post about Twenty’s weird upbringing at some point, aren’t I?  Anyway, short version is, Twenty was trained from birth (hell, born with the express intent) to turn him into the perfect white collar criminal/politician.  He was always being told what he needed to do.  His mother taught him politicking, his father taught him magic.  “Once I was seven years old my momma told me/Go make yourself some friends or you'll be lonely/Once I was seven years old”

Ain’t No Rest For The Wicked, Cage the Elephant Twenty in the thick of backstory, the early years of being sent out on his own, pulling schemes just subtle enough to not technically be schemes.  Though he’s very much not the narrator, if anything he’s the preacher man.  “Oh no, I can't slow down, I can't hold back/Though you know, I wish I could/Oh no there ain't no rest for the wicked/Until we close our eyes for good”

Magic, Mystery Skulls He’s a ~Magic Man~, I wanted a song about magic.  You could also make the argument that it’s a Fifty song but this one doesn’t have a terribly deep explanation.  “The spell you got on me, it's like magic/Got me feeling like falling in love....../ So it took me by surprise, oh no.”

The Logical Song, Pomplamoose (cover) Okay, I was gonna use the original version of this song but I ended up preferring the vocals on this cover better.  This one better hits on Twenty’s upbringing, being trained in manipulation and magic, how to bend people in his favor, he must be perfect, must be because he’s their legacy, someone has to make sure the Bellisario family keeps its influence, who will be there to spread the family’s will if not him?  He has to be a worthy son.  “Won't you please, please tell me what we've learned/I know it sounds absurd/Please tell me who I am”

Thief, Imagine Dragons Look, I could put this on here exclusively for the fucking sweet opening riff.  But, oh boy, he’s a middle aged man suddenly having to forge an identity of his own, independent from the ideals instilled in him by his family and sometimes, wouldn’t it-?  Wouldn’t it just be easier to be that man who stumbled into the strange mansion in the mountains?  He knew what he was supposed to do.  He had a goal.  The man who left didn’t have anything like that.  “So take me back/When I believed/Back when I was unafraid.../ When the stars look down on me/What do they see”

Amsterdam, Imagine Dragons Oh look, Twenty’s mom finally made an appearance.  Twenty and his parents were under the implicit agreement/understanding that he needed to keep them up to date with his movements and schemes, his mother primarily since she was the parent living in the Prime Material Plane.  This petered off eventually (it was a long eventually but an eventually nonetheless) but he’s still glad that at least under the current circumstances he doesn’t have to deal with both of his parents.  His mother may be the one who taught him politics but she has no qualms with brutal honesty and he knows she would be vocally disappointed in him.  His father doesn’t take him all that seriously but more just finds his ‘antics’ amusing, he thinks the insistence on the name Twenty is funny.  His mother is just as passive aggressive but far more vocal, she would take the name Twenty as akin to an insult, he is Alexander Bellisario and he can’t change that.  “I'm sorry, mother... I'm sorry, I let you down/Well, these days I'm fine/No these days I tend to lie”

[overloveds-archive]

❛  ✶  (    kelsey  merritt,  cis  female,  she/her    )    —    did  you  see  elle  vera  walking  around  campus  earlier?  i  hear  a  lot  of  people  talking  about  the  twenty  one  year  old  junior.  from  what  i  know,  they  are  studying  english  and  are  a  part  of  sigma  epsilon  chi.  they  come  across  as  +gracious  but  also  -inflexible,  which  makes  sense  because  on  their  instagram    (    @cinderelle​    )    it  says  they  are  a  taurus . when i see  them,  i  think  of  missing  someone  you  haven’t  met  yet,  an  empty  stomach  filling  up  with  butterflies,  staying  up  all  night  and  telling  secrets  you  swear  you’ll  keep.

alright  hello  i’m  b  twenty three  and  i  never  fuckin  learned  how  to  write  so  i  am  sorry  about  this.  i’d  link  you  to  a  wanted  connections  tag  but  i  got  one  post  n  that  won’t  be  any  help  n  i  do  have  a  biography  written  for  elle  but  most  of  it  revolves  around  her  secret  so  i  won’t  link  it  yet  either  :p  haha  so  far  so  good  amirite??  you  probably  will  figure  it  out  anyway  once  you  read  the  rest  of  this  post...  under  the  cut  is  me  doing  my  best  to  be  vague,  bare  with  me  because  i  can’t  wait  to  start  writing  with  u  guys.

statistics.

𝐅𝐔𝐋𝐋 𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄: elle winnifred vera 𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐒: ellie, vera 𝐅𝐀𝐂𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐌: kelsey merritt 𝐀𝐆𝐄: 21 𝐃𝐎𝐁: may 1 𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐍: taurus 𝐌𝐀𝐉𝐎𝐑: english 𝐒𝐎𝐑𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐘: sigma epsilon chi 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐎𝐖𝐍: greenwhich, ct 𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄: cambridge, ma 𝐎𝐂𝐂𝐔𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍: student 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒: maxwell vera, elizabeth pruitt-vera 𝐒𝐈𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒: kevin vera, lily vera 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄: gracious 𝐍𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄: inflexible 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐑: beige 𝐒𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐎𝐍: autumn 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆: fake smile by ariana grande 𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊: wuthering heights 𝐌𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐄: clueless 𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒: anna karenina, annette hargrove

breakdown.

elle has a good home life, it’s not the best but whose is?? her father is a successful businessman and her mother is a small time fashion designer. she has an older brother and a younger sister that she doesn’t have the best relationship with but she tries.

the family has money, but they’re from new money and her dad is constantly working and her mom still has this dream that she’s going to be the next coco chanel so she’s always away working on that dream.

her dad is very strict with her brother because he’s the first born and they have expectations for him to take over the business and they never put that kind of pressure on elle. her brother resented her for being cherished and loved unconditionally by their father and as much as elle tried growing up to bond with him, he wasn’t having any of it.

after the they had elle, her mother was ready to get back into the fashion industry but less than a year after having elle she was unexpectedly pregnant again and her dream was once again put on hold.

elle’s sister was a tougher baby to care for and that on top of having to stay home, her mother blamed her sister. this put a strain of elle’s relationship with her sister too because her sister was jealous of how great their mother treated elle. her brother and sister connected over the bad relationships with their parents and evidently isolated elle.

elle doesn’t blame her siblings or her parents for the lack of relationships with her brother and sister, she doesn’t really understand why things are the way they are, and she’s still trying to forge a bond to this day.

the next 4 bullet points are taken from her biography because i don’t know how else to word it.. again i am sorry... :p regardless of not having the best relationship with her brother and sister, it was easy for elle to make friends. she’s beautiful, elegant, and her family has money— anyone would be stupid to turn a friendship with someone like her down. 

elle’s father also talked her up with colleagues. before she could speak for herself, she already had this pristine reputation. you’d think she would hate living up to that and yet it was the opposite, she loved being known as her father’s sweet daughter because that’s exactly who she is. 

elle is lucky enough to be the person she wants to be; kind, compassionate, and never taken advantage of, thanks to the reputation her father provided her. everyone views her as perfect and she lives up to the title. 

at home, she’s admired and all the other girls are constantly comparing themselves to her. and thus, she has it easy. so easy that she’s grown comfortable living a certain way of life. end scene.

a lot of people come to elle for advice especially since she’s been with her boyfriend for 5 years and she loves being that person for those she cares about but shes also that person that gives out advice and never takes it

speaking of her bf... he’s a grad student and he’s known around campus but he doesn’t come around very much which i’m sure is suspicious to elle’s friends but he’s the guy that is like my studies are more important than going to a stupid party with u.. and elle understands because she’s elle

she’s not exactly a pushover but she does like to make people happy. but if it’s a serious matter she won’t be afraid to say something that the person doesn't want to hear. she never does with her bf though because she believes he’s right... and doesn’t want him to break up with her

because her bf doesn't come around much she usually attends events to take care of her friends or she just stays home. it’s hard to convince her to do things without him. gags

she’s an english major and because her parents adore her they don’t mind that she’s picked a career path that won’t eventually lead to big money and honestly they’re not worried about her being able to provide for herself since she has her bf whose family is rolling in money and they assume they’ll end up together and she’ll be taken care of.

elle picked english because she loves it. she loves reading and escaping her own problems through the stories in the thousands of books she owns. we love healthy coping mechanisms.

i think that is it?? i know i ALWAYS forget something but if you decide to plot w me i’ll make sure to let u know anything i haven’t added here.

i CAN link a social media page that isn’t much but it’s something...

for the smart people who skipped to the end here is a quick summary: she’s the poster child for the perfect rich girl and it’s not even an act! she’s that person who you meet and realize that home can be a person and not a place. legend

now i am going to go finish reading your intros and laugh as i think back to the mess that this is <3

[bthump]

hey asia do u have any modern au gg headcanons you’d like to share? i haven’t asked in a long time and i miss u sharing your thoughts lol

<3 ty!

There are so many different good concepts for modern AUs so this is probably going to be a little random and disorganized, but I’ll throw out some ideas.

I feel like the most obvious au idea is, hilariously to me, a high school au since they meet when they’re fifteen. In which case Griffith would be like the multi talented popular class president and Guts would be the surly loner new kid who starts fight and who Griffith inexplicably falls for and starts ignoring his carefully maintained social group and grades for. And at first Guts is weirded out and standoffish but once he realizes Griffith genuinely wants to be his friend they become inseparable.

Classic teenage romance stuff. And I don’t think every AU has to follow the pattern of Guts leaving because he doesn’t think Griffith loves him enough. Maybe in this case it’s an actual break up and it’s because, idk, Griffith’s grades slip to the point where he’s in danger of missing out on necessary scholarships and he’s worried he’s dragging Griffith down. Or it’s pure self-esteem issues and Guts leaves bc you can’t be abandoned if you abandon your bf first. Or maybe more like in canon he leaves bc he knows Griff is going to be immensely successful and doesn’t want to feel completely inadequate next to him so he goes to like, trade school and also fails to communicate lol. Whatever, point is Griffith completely falls apart.

And then after a year or two of misery and soul searching they get back together and live happily ever after.

But there are other modern au ideas that could work and be more fun than high school aus. Like how about a celeb au type thing. Griffith as an up and coming actor and Guts as the stunt man he meets on set one day. They have a whirlwind romance, Guts leaves, as he does, and Griffith downward spirals, disappears from the industry for a few years, then makes a comeback and instantly cements himself as a star. I mean I just think fame is a good modern analogue for NeoGriffith’s whole thing lol.

But yk, without the monsters and demons Guts’ side isn’t about revenge, it’s about feelings of inadequacy which Griffith makes 10x worse by pretending to be super aloof and above it all once he’s back from his breakdown. Then maybe they have to work together again on something and things go from there. Also repression fits in with this scenario really well so maybe it ends with Griffith coming out and finding himself perfectly content to fall from superstardom to b or c list level.

idk lol, this probably isn’t quite what you were looking for but I’m bad at coming up with single modern au headcanons in isolation, I need to think of entire scenarios.

Anyone else have any modern AU ideas?

[rpandthangs]

So, I have no chill, too much muse and too much time on my hands. (really, I’m suppose to write some schoolwork but pff) Down below, heuheu, there’s plenty of different relationships/plots I’d like for Ronan but I’m also super open to different ones and more, so if any of these interest you or you just in general want to plot hmu. ❤

trigger warning；toxic relationships and infadility

the childhood friend ↽

+ best friend, born 1993, open gender, open fc.

These two grew up together and known each other when they still were in their mother’s bellies, Q’s family has always worked for the Lynah’s and their fathers became close in the aspect of work and friendship. Therefor their families were often together but it was pretty clear that the Lynah was superior, almost a master – servant kind of vibe around them and that’s how it has always been. Q’s is probably the only one who actually understands how Ronan thinks, knows where all that anger and evil is and absolutely hates Magnus Lynah beyond anything.

Q’s always been there, always taking Ronan side even if he doesn’t deserve it, they were each other first kiss, he was the one who took Q’s virginity because they had made a promise that they should wait until both of them were ready (Ronan said he was a virgin too to make Q happy but he wasn’t), Q is probably the only one who might be able to tell Ronan what to do and not to do, Q keeps Ronan sane while Ronan make Q insane. Ronan is Q’s biggest fan and biggest bully; he knows damn well that Q has always loved him beyond friendship and abuses that very clearly without admitting that he knows. Q’s the person he treats the best and the worst and with every relationship Ronan has a hand in is pretty toxic.

When Ronan got sent to Silver Creek it wasn’t even a question if Q would move to; Q had too because Ronan can’t live without his best friend and what Ronan wants he gets. The future of Q and what Q works with/studies and anything like that is completely open, Q’s might even get tired of his shit finally and tell him to fuck right off. Who knows, and I’m just using Q to refer to the best friend to make it easier to write. All this can of course be tweaked and changed a bit, I’m always up for discussing all them plot and dynamics.

the best friend ↽

Open age, open gender, open fc.

This is completely open and can even be someone he met two years ago when he moved to Silver Creek? They just happened to connect on a level that is not very common when it comes to Ronan, they’re probably has a less complicated relationship than he and Q but still very close. Talks about everything, always got each other back even if they totally do not agree with each other, does a lot of stupid shit together etc. This is super open to be honest so I’m all for discussion more possibilities and depths in this best friend situation. Just because this person also is his best friend doesn’t mean he/she likes Q, maybe they fucking hate each other or loves each other – who knows.

friendships; Of course, he as other kind of more simple friendships such as friends he mostly just parties with or might just take a coffee with each other if they meet out on town. (he most likely has people he’s frenemies with or just people who he can’t stand and who can’t stand him)

current girlfriend ↽

pixie de souza, 25, bruna marquezine, jo

Totally open, they most likely just met a few weeks ago or at least decided to start dating as gf/bf a few weeks ago. Super open so come at me with all them ideas, I’m always up for plotting and the drama. Just a reminder that he will cheat, lie and be a proper asshole from time to time – at least he will buy you pretty and expensive shit.

on/off girlfriend for two years ↽

melanie applebaum, 24, victoria pedretti, chloe

They met when he just arrived to Silver Creek, probably the typical good girl – everyone’s sweetheart, everyone knows her, her father is probably the freaking preacher. Everything that just shouldn’t have anything with Ronan to do, so obviously her friends and family hates him and tells her constantly that he’s not good enough etc. Which is very… true but she also absolutely fucking loves him? And don’t want to be the one that gives up on him, but he’s also horrible so she tries to break up with him but then they always somehow end up back together… and Ronan will probably realize that he actually cares for her when it’s too late. Also, maybe a future pregnancy that may or may not force Ronan into an absolute mental breakdown and maybe become a good person… maybe. This is also pretty open to be honest, I’m always up for other ideas etc. but I like the dynamic of good girl/bad guy. Nothing is set in stone though.

ex-girlfriends ↽

Open ages, open faces.

Ronan has definitely managed to go through a few relationships during his two years in Silver Creek, they’re probably pretty short and intense. They most likely broke up with him because he’s a cheating asshole and he got tired of lying about it so there wasn’t much more to save, doesn’t have to be serious at all or maybe it was serious as well? Super open, there’s plenty of fun plots and dram to throw in here some come at me.

friends with benefits/hook-ups ↽

Open ages, open genders, open faces.

This is what Ronan prefers so I’m guessing he has plenty of people in his mobile that he or they just text him when they’re… feeling lonely. That doesn’t care if he’s in a relationship and people that do, again – there’s plenty of dramatic scenarios we could come up with in this category as well. Though, when it comes to hook-ups with males, they’re a few and in secret – which also could be a fun and dramatic relationship. Gay panic in secret with his ultimate enemy? Or someones brother? Plenty of scandalous things can be plotted so come at me.

jazmin estrada, 26, selena gomez, skye literally just uses him for sex when she needs to get her mind off things, smh love that.

aspen kaine, 22, troye sivan, elin friends with aspen's horrible boyfriend and oops, hooked up. kinda hate each other, kinda not, they both got dirt on each other that they don't want to be known... it's complicated

In general Ronan is the “bad guy” so do you need someone to be the bad guy or be the one who does something shitty to your char – he’s here to be that one. Would love a plot where he gets together with someone just for a bet, to get a picture of the person naked or worse – who knows. SO MANY THINGS I WANT, anyhow, I obviously have no chill and I have too much time on my hands.

[angelkurenai]

Guardian angel - Alexander Calvert x Reader

Title: Guardian angel

Pairing: Alexander Calvert x Reader

Warnings: None

Word Count: 3k+

Prompt: Hello I loved reading your dating your co-star Alexander Calvert one-shot. So maybe you could do another one like maybe the reader gets injured (car accident or on set stunt gone wrong) and your bf (Alex) and the Supernatural cast and crew get the news and rush to be by your hospital bed/side? Just something to think about, I just really liked how in Co-Star you could Really tell they were a family and that was great to read about some more, Thanks!:)♥

A/N: I thought of adding an extra touch of fluff at the end and more romance throughout, so here we go!

“My mom... She-” Alexander paused for a second, adding that much-needed small stutter for his character but in realityhe wasn't doing on purpose for Jack, but because he had forgotten his own lines “She said you'd- you'd-” he frowned in deep thought but in the end sighed heavily, burying his face in his hands.

“Cut!” the director yelled “Alright, uh Alex this is totally not working, I really hope you can see it too. Please just gather your thoughts, go through your lines once more, we'll need to go through the entire scene. Everyone else, take five minutes.”

“I'm... sorry.” he ended up mumbling, sighing heavily when he knew nobody, not to mention the very pissed off director, heard him. Truth was everyone was starting to get a little frustrated over his lack of concentration and struggle to remember any of his lines because it had made filming this scene take longer and every scene they had to film be put off. And that just meant more time on work and less time for sleep or time with family which nobody really liked. As if he didn't have enough things to worry about, being the reason to such a problem made it all worse. Because it meant he had to be kept away from you even longer and gosh was that painful.

It was hard for a close couple such as the two of you to be kept apart, let alone during a time he had no news from you.

“Hey” Misha's sympathetic voice made him look up, his own tired eyes meeting his “Don't stress yourself out for this, yeah? You've been the only one besides (Y/n) doing some actual work behind the cameras too, you just need to relax a little.”

“Yeah, no. No, I mean-” he rubbed his tired eyes “It's nto the only thing troubling me. It's that I- I can't concentrate at all, you know? My mind's always on-” he clenched his jaw, his head hanging low “I think I'm going crazy with worry here or I'm probably too paranoid but I- I can't help it because you know (Y/n), and you know us! We- we are sickly sweet, yes, and terribly clingy but it's all because we love each other a-and we've promised each other than even if there's distance between us we won't let it affect us a-and-”

“Whoa whoa! Alex! Hey! Alex, calm down!” it took a second for the younger actor to realize Misha was standing by his side with wide eyes, his hands on his shoulders shaking him to bring him back to reality “Is something wrong with (Y/n)?”

“Shit, sorry Misha. I just-” he dragged a hand down his face, hastily getting up from his seat “I gotta go check my phone for a second and then I'll- I'll be right back and we can practice the scene.”

“I- sure.” Misha only could mumble as he watched the young man rush towards his belongings with such seriousness it made him actually worry, so he couldn't help but follow but keep his distance.

“Hey, Misha!” Jensen whisper-shouted his friend's name, making him turn to look at him.

“Hey, good we found you!” Jared spoke to him as they both approached him “You have a scene with Alex right? I was thinking about this joke if you-”

“I really don't think now's the right time guys.” the blue-eyed man looked at his friends with a clenched jaw, shaking his head.

And their smiles immediately fell when they followed his line of sight and took notice of Alex look in frustration and, it became soon clear, worry at his phone. They shared a look and without needing to say a word they approached him.

“Hey Alex, is everything ok bud?” Jared's voice was low and gentle, worry on his features when he saw the actualdesperation on his face.

“Still no text or call.” his arms hung by his sides before he rubbed his burning eyes.

“No text from who?” Jared blinked as Misha's eyebrows raised in realization.

“(Y/n)” he breathed out, everything falling into place, but his stomach only tying in knots when he saw how desperate “(Y/n) has sent no texts and that's what's been worrying you.”

And it was true. He had not been able to pull a single scene off because he couldn't stop thinking about you and the fact that you had yet to call him back. He tried his hardest to be reasonable, that you were just too busy, but his mind kept coming up with the worst possible scenarios as to what could have possibly happened to you. And that was driving him crazy.

“I've-” Alex tried to swallow over the lump in his throat “I've been trying to reach her for hours now a-and she hasn't sent a single text back. She had the day off but kept busy by running errands but- We've- we've promised each other that no matter how busy our days are that we'll keep in touch one way or another. You guys know us a- and I've already sent countless messages and voicemails! I've tried calling but she hasn't answered and I just know that's not like (Y/n)! She-she never misses my calls and...” he looked around him only for his glossy eyes to widen “It's nighttime.” he breathed out instead “Sh-she didn't let her bodyguard drive her... she took her car.”

“Son of a bitch.” Jensen breathed out with wide eyes “I'll try her home number.” he hastily pulled out his phone.

“I'll call Gen in case they talked today.” Jared said, doing the same just as fast.

“You try calling her, again.” Misha rushed to get his phone as well “I'm gonna call-” but he paused mid-sentence and all four of them mid-movement when Alex's phone lit up and started buzzing.

He looked down, all-too-eagerly, but even the tiniest hint of smile faded from his lips. He felt his throat tighten when he muttered “I- it's an unknown number.”

~*~

“Alex, hold up. You need to calm down first.” Misha's words seemed to fall on deaf ears as the younger man rushed forward and the rest three trailed behind him, worried too but unable to understand the real fear cursing through his veins.

“They said she's in this floor, we need- we need to ask someone. Someone.” the panic was obvious in his words, expression and his frantic moves as he rushed down the long hospital hallway.

The second they got that phone call it felt like his entire world came crumbling down. Seeing an unkown number was scary enough in such a situation, but hearing a woman on the other end hearing they were calling from a hospital made the weight on his chest crush him like an elephant. The older actors had seen the way Alexander's eyes widened, filling more with tears and a choked gasp leaving his lips. He had whispered something hoarsely and it had taken him a some time to gather his thoughts and choked out the truth. It had made all of their hearts fill with panic as well.

You've been a part of the cast for years, even before Alex joined the show – they had actually gotten to know him trough you before he was casted, that you practically grew up with them. You were a family member and there was no denying it. And knowing how everyone in the cast and crew viewed you as that too, they didn't have to say a single word to the director more than what happened before he was cancelling all filming and kicking them out of the set to go find you as fast as possible.

They needed to make sure you were alright and they too knew they shouldn't leave Alex alone. The man was in a shook but as soon as the hard truth set in he was in utter panic and if he got hold of a car then he'd break every driving rule possible before he got to you, and they couldn't afford another accident either.

He paused, looking around with red-rimmed and frantic eyes in search of either a nurse or a doctor. The moment he spotted a reception desk he didn't hesitate to make a run for it as if his life depended on it, blurting “(Y/n) (Y/l/n). Th-they-I got a- a phone call saying sh-she was brought here after an-” a painful lump in his throat prevented him from saying the word “After an accident. We were told we'd find her here, do you know where they have her?”

“Uh miss (Y/l/n)-” she mumbled, typing your name “Yes, she's in the 221B but-” and no sooner had she said the room than the young actor was dashing away to find you, ignoring her calling after him “Sir, no. Please, you can't see her now, there doctor's in there with her.”

The three older men were more calm and able to hear but the words didn't register for them either because their own hearts were hammering painfully inside their chests, faster and harder with every step they took closer to your room. They did notice the the doctor exiting at that very moment but Alex's eyes were fixated on your room and doing anything to get in that he didn't stop until Misha held him back.

“Are you miss (Y/l/n)'s family?” the man asked with a frown.

“I'm- I'm her boyfriend and these are her- her friends. Are you the doctor?” Alex spoke up, his eyes moving back and forth, wide and desperate “Did you see her? Is she alright? Is she hurt? Is she- is she awake? How is she?”

“Alex, calm down.” it was until Jensen spoke in a calmer voice that the younger man realized his voice had raised and his looks probably gave away a man near the edge of breakdown, his hair a mess and his eyes red and glossy.

“She is awake, you don't need to worry sir.” Alex choked on his sigh at the doctor's words, but he was more than thankful “But-” it didn't last long “I cannot tell you for how long this will last. We barely saved her from falling into a coma, she has multiple injures some of which on integral organs and a few broken bones and ribs. It was a serious accident I'm afraid.”

“A-And what does that mean?... For her life?” Alex barely could barely hold back a sob but his fear was very much obvious.

The doctor sighed, making them all hold their breath “The first 24 hours are crucial and she will be kept under strict supervision but we have every reason to be hopeful. She is young and in good health, there are high chances she will be alright. Especially if she has friends and family by her side at this moment.”

Alex gave him a slow nod but it was mostly mechanical because his mind was only on you and his worry couldn't help fear of the worse “A-And-” he started in a hoarse voice “Can we see her now?”

“I wouldn't really-”

“Please” he spoke up before the doctor could finish his sentence “Please, I- I need to see her. She needs to see me. Believe me, it will help her a lot. It- It will make her feel much better.”

“Well, I do suppose that it will help to know she's not alone.” he nodded his head “Alright, but only one can enter now and only for a small amount of time. No more than ten minutes, alright?” he asked and got nods from all of them “You can decide. Have a nice day gentlemen.”

“You too.” was murmured softly by the three men as the fourth and younger one stared at the door while holding his breath. He placed his hand on the doorhandle but didn't move. It didn't take more than an encouraging pat on the shoulder, nod and reassuring smile from his coworkers and friends for him to just push it open.

The first sight that he took in was you, as it usually happened there was always something that drew him to you. Naturally so he could find you even in a crowd of a thousand people, as funny or impossible as that sounded. But this time he really wished he didn't have to, not with all those machines linked to your body; supporting you and practically keeping you alive.

“'Lex?” a weak, small voice caught his attention.

He blinked, his vision still blury from the unshed tears as he made his way towards your bedside “H-hey pumpkin.” his cursed himself in his mind for how shaky it was. He wanted to be strong for you the way you'd been so many times for him.

“You- you're here.” you choked, tears forming in your own eyes and your heart instantly swelling inside your chest when he gathered your one hand in his and pressed kiss all over your fingers and knuckles.

“Of course I am. Didn't you know it already?” he smiled “I'll always find my way to you, that's what guardian angels do.”

“I know, and you have never left my side once.” you nodded your head, smiling despite the tears forming in your own eyes “I'm sorry I- I didn't get to call you first. It happened out of nowhere and I-”

“Hey, hey it's ok. It's all fine, it's not your fault after all.” he cupped your cheek with his one hand, leaning in to kiss your forehead “I've- I've been having a bad feeling about it as well. We're probably the world's most needy and clingy couple, I don't think there is any other way I can describe it, but when you didn't answer my calls I knew something was wrong. So much so that I was starting to piss of the entire crew when I couldn't focus on the scene, I couldn't stop thinking about you.”

“I- I'm so sorry about this, Alex.” you closed your eyes, letting out a shaky sigh “Gosh you must have gotten so worried. And I- I would never want that for you.”

“You're far too perfect... I don't deserve you, (Y/n).” he whispered, pressing another kiss on your temple “How can you think of me right now? Baby, it's all about and getting back up on your feet I don't care about anything else. So- No, no don't apologize about anything, alright? None of this is on you. None of it.”

“B-but I- you had work and I just-”

“How can you seriously think of work at a time like this? You-” he rested his forehead against yours, looking deeply in your eyes “You nearly lost your...” but he couldn't say it “I nearly lost my world, I ain't gonna think about anything else but you. Because I don't care about anything else, you know you are the most important thing in my entire life. I gave up on everything and everyone as soon as I found out and I'm gonna stay here for as long as it takes.”

“No Alex, you can see I'm fine, you shouldn't give up on your work now. You must-”

“I told you it doesn't matter. Besides, I've got a free pass for as long as it takes. Everyone's worried and on edge for you as well, no work is being done as they all are worried about you. They're only waiting to make sure you're alright, you know how much everyone cares about you. Even the boys are outside waiting. And I'm gonna be alright as long as you are. I need you to promise you'll keep fighting for that.”

“Don't worry, you aren't gonna get rid of me that easily.” you grinned, bringing a hand up to run though his hair “Even guardian angels need someone to watch over them too.”

“Accepted... only once you're fully healed, though. And until then... you won't be getting rid of me all the while you're here or once they let you leave. So that means...” he kissed your cheek “You're moving in with me and I won't take no for an answer.”

“No, Alex I can't be a burd-”

“Nope” he shook his head, shushing you with a quick kiss on the lips “You're not a burden. Just consider this... practice, for when you finally move in with me for good, something that's gonna happen soon anyway.”

“I- alright.”